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Character Name: Justine
Canon: The Dresden Files
Canon Point: Death Masks (Right before Thomas is about to kill her).

In-Game Tattoo Placement: Over her heart -Reference Design.
Current Health/Status: Justine is alive but just barely. Her soul is being fed on by her lover who is a White Court Vampire, which is better known as an incubus. Due to this her soul is a fragment of what it was. She also has Borderline Personality Disorder but she currently doesn't take medicine for it and uses the mental influence of the White Court Vampires to keep herself calm.
Apparent Age: 21
Actual Age: 21
Species: Human

History: WIKI LINK
Hometown/World: Justine is from Earth, however it's an Earth with fairies, vampires, wizards and other things that go bump in the night. The canon takes place in Chicago, though it is noted that Justine travels all over the world as Thomas's companion. More about the creatures and world can be found here.

Personality:
Her personality is divided into two sections. There is the part of Justine that's strong and kind. This is the woman who loves to sketch, read and crochet. However, there is also the part of her that's affected by Borderline Personality Disorder and is handling her position as a sheep among vampires. Her emotions and personality traits can become chaotic and, at times, contradictory depending on the situation.

On a good day...

This is the side of herself that Justine considers to be the closest to her true self: observant, sweet, witty and a little nerdy. Justine has a good intuition when it comes to judging people and is able to notice small changes in demeanor or the way that someones eyes sweep the room. She's kind to those who earn her trust and loyalty. Her favorite book is the hobbit and after a hectic life she enjoys doing calming things in her free time like sketching and crocheting.

Her life doesn't truly begin until Thomas saves her from becoming one of Bianca's whores. Bianca is a Red Court Vampire who feeds on blood and prides herself in having the prettiest whores in Chicago. At the time, Justine was under the age of 18. She is then placed under the protection of Thomas and the White Court Vampires but this also makes her their property. Even with her new chains, Justine is happy. This was the first time in her life where the voices in her head were quiet. It's at this time that she begins to figure out who she is and who she wants to be.

Justine is selfish by nature. She's selfish but she isn't unkind or mean. She's nice to people and sweet, but the motivations for her politeness are usually self-serving in some way. She doesn't do so out of benevolence but for a favor or protection. She does this to Harry constantly throughout the series and, while he's wary of Justine after a while, he doesn't think poorly of her. Her efforts usually appear accidental. She'll keep fighting at others sides or rush in to help people but she'll also pick the right moment to duck out and keep herself or Thomas safe.

She is very loyal to those who earn her trust though it is very difficult for Justine to truly trust someone.

Justine is able to see past peoples masks and into who they truly are. She has been able to reliably use her intuition to quickly get a sense of how people will act in a given scenario and is able to take risks on these judgement's. She uses everything she has to her advantage; her beauty and her mind. She uses this talent to navigate the social circles of the Courts. She is able to use her mind as a weapon while appearing weak and frail, allowing her to be constantly underestimated. The best way to explain this is with an example. In White Night, Justine leads Harry to a good hiding place during the White Court Conclave. At the time she seems disconnected. It's only later in the book that Thomas tells Harry that she's working with Lara, his sister, to get small bits of information about the white courts plans to Thomas and later to Harry. The reason that she seems odd and disconnected at the cave is because she's pretending to be a puppet. She isn't the only good liar and her lies aren't infallible but she knows how to appear so that she's trusted or disregarded.

Justine refuses to see the world with rose colored glasses. She is open-minded when facing new people and new challenges but also very understanding and accepting. In Grave Peril, Harry claims that Thomas is just using her but Justine doesn't see it that way. If Thomas wanted too he could control Justine, muddling with her mind and her memories. It's part of his skills as a white court vampire but he doesn't. Its small things like this that are not apparent to those looking at her situation from the out side. She is food and considered property, but there is more to it than what's on the surface and more to Thomas. Justine is able to see all of this and this skill allows her a greater insight into the people around her.

Justine is very accepting of what Thomas is able to offer her. What's more, she's happy and at times eager to feed him in return. Thomas wrestles with his demon, hates it and wants to protect Justine from it; however, the hungrier he gets, the less he's able to control his demon. Justine will see this and offer herself to him to ease his torment in a similar way that feeding on her eases her own. In that, they have a symbiotic relationship but the situation isn't ideal since the act of Thomas feeding on Justine develops a psychological addiction.

Due to her canon point, this psychological addiction and her separation from Thomas will mean that Justine will succumb to violent fits of rage.

Outside of the presence of Thomas, or another of the white court, Justine's mood swings and her inability to control her emotions will eventually overwhelm her. Extreme emotional outbursts wear at her mind and can end in her passing out or becoming too mentally exhausted to feel. She can be violent during these times, and will lash out at those close to her. She is feral and intense and while the extreme state will pass with time she has been known to resort to drugs to cope with them. Even with Thomas and her other forms of self-medication Justine sometimes struggles with control over her emotions.

When Justine's mind is clear, she's very good at controlling her thoughts and functioning in a normal capacity; however, her illness is always there. Her near-constant control of her logical thoughts is due to her vigilance, an effort to control her emotions, though, while her control is greater than the average person's it sometimes isn't enough and she slips. It's sort of like holding your breath. She might be able to hold it longer, but once she needs air, she still needs to rise to the surface to breathe.

Justine's condition is indicated in the canon material as a mental disorder though a specific type isn't mentioned. When Thomas sees Justine in Side Job's, she's being used as Lara's messenger and is perfectly articulate without the effect of Thomas calming her. It’s implied that she's taken medication and that her condition is being taken care of medically at that point, per Lara's promise to Thomas to keep Justine safe.

The mental disorder isn't classified in the story, however, after researching her behavior through the books as well as her triggers it appears to be Borderline Personality Disorder. The clinic definition is "a serious mental disorder marked by a pattern of ongoing instability in moods, behavior, self-image, and functioning. These experiences often result in impulsive actions and unstable relationships. A person with BPD may experience intense episodes of anger, depression, and anxiety that may last from only a few hours to days." This is seen in a few instances in the novels. Harry describes Justine as feral when he is locked in a prison with her. She is described as having 'ranting emotions'. Later, when Justine describes her relationship with Thomas to Harry she says that Thomas 'makes it quieter'. This implies that feeding has the same affect of mental drugs.

At her current canon point she is not medicated. If left unchecked in game Justine will experience harsh mood swings with different triggers setting her off. These triggers with start as significant events but slowly become smaller and smaller instances until she can't control her emotions at all without finding some way to handle what she's feeling. The way Justine handles these ranting emotions is through vices such as sex, drugs, etc.

Personal Moral Codes: Justine's moral code is a little hazy.

She is loyal to those who have earned her trust and will do anything it takes to protect them. She isn't above letting someone else die so that she and her friends can live. At the same time, she'll take calculated risks for children and try to protect people out of principle. She might not die for others but if the opportunity to help presents itself, she'll take it. Justine isn't reckless by nature and will have a logical reason for her choices.

While she's seen a fair amount of death, Justine has never taken a life before. She will not hesitate too if it's in protection of her life or a close friend. She will usually try and leave a death up to circumstance over having a physical hand in it.

Insecurities/Personal Demons: Justine's biggest insecurity is her mental disorder. She hates feeling weak or feeling like she isn't in control herself. This is Justine's biggest obstacle and by far the hardest thing she has to face. She feels everything to an extreme. The book describes her as being "Mad with Emotion" and she doesn't know how to temper that.

Abilities/Powers/Weaknesses:
Justine has a lot of random skills that she is good at; sketching, crocheting, reading lips, cleaning, cooking, first-aid and other things like that. She doesn't have a weakness except that she's very human. She has no super powers but she does know how to duel-wield swords and shoot guns.

Ability/Power/Magic Warping: N//A
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Writing Samples: HERE

OUT OF CHARACTER

Player Name: Ami
Player Age: 28
Player Contact: mizuyoko

Other Characters In Game: n/a
In-Game Tag If Accepted: Justine: Ami
Permissions for Character: Here
Are you comfortable with prominent elements of fourth-walling?: I am alright with fourth-walling.

What themes of horror/psychological thrillers do you enjoy the most?: I would like Justine to have a chance to face her personal demons but perhaps on a physical level. She tries so hard to run or cover the voices in her head that she doesn't stop to find out what's really wrong with her. I'd like to make her uncomfortable. I want people to see her fears and make her feel exposed or weak. Justine plays well off of horror elements that relate to what's going on inside her head. Other ideas that come to mind are being stuck in nightmares, a hunting games, etc.
Is there anything in particular you absolutely need specific content warnings for?: No. I would like content warnings on things so I know what I'm pulling up but I don't need content warnings for comfort.
Additional Information: Nothing relevant comes to mind but after dating Thomas for 5 years she is a little bit of a nerd and knows about Buffy or The Hobbit, etc. I think that's a fun fact.